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Subject:coming home from vacations
Time:11:06 pm
Coming back from vacations is never easy for me. I love exploring new places, and the lack of emails, internet, and work. I love being able to let go of all the day to day crap and just live each day to the fullest.

Coming back from vacation this time was especially rough. It's been a tough year for me, and this week was great, not because it was perfect, but because I lived the way I want to live.

I'm going to be honest with myself. I don't like what I'm doing right now and I don't really believe in it, and it makes coming back from vacation really tough. There's nothing I can do right now but accept this fact, get through the next four years, and make sure I never get myself into this type of situation again. Besides, it's not all bad, and I'm doing some pretty cool stuff, learning an amazing amount of information, and I'll come out of it stronger.

But for the next four years, I will live for these little vacations.
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Time:04:09 pm
Public speaking does not get easier the more you do it. At least not for me. The more I do it, the more I just get apathetic towards it, but it's still not easy.
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Time:08:29 pm
currently in a life funk.
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Time:11:36 pm
i amuse myself so much. and that's fantastic! science will always be so weird to me. so many socially awkward people in one room. so much ridiculous drama. i think if you just keep a healthy outlook on how ridiculous it is, it can be really, really amusing and worthwhile.
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Subject:public speaking
Time:08:29 am
The only ways Iam getting over my fear of public speaking:

1. Reminding myself that it'sone way to learn how to improve my work.
2. It's not worth being nervous all the time. In fact, it's just tiring.
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Time:08:30 pm
IF I STOPPED WASTING TIME, I WOULD GET SO MUCH DONE.

How do I get myself to focus?

Focus=me doing amazing things.
No focus=me reading perez hilton and postsecret.

Focus > no focus.
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Time:10:35 am
I will be awkward for the rest of my life! I've just accepted it.
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Subject:Currently.
Time:02:13 am
Doing that thing when I think too much.
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Subject:Dec 31, 2008
Time:01:08 am
Without realizing it, I think spending all of this time worrying about Academia made me forget what I'm really all about.

Thankfully, I somehow magically took a first step today towards reminding myself why I am doing what I am doing, who I am, and what I like to do.

Among other things, I'm pretty sure this means I have to move out of this country when I finish grad school. Note the use of word "have" not "want," although I want to anyway :)

Well good thing this happened before 2009! Now I have something to look forward to.
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Subject:Things.
Time:12:08 am
1. Trying to look like an adult when you're 5'1 and have the face of a 12 year old.. is quite painful. Mostly, it's difficult and takes way too much of my time.

2. I need to learn grown up terms... terms like "literature review" instead of "reading papers."

3. I never liked making things sound fancier than they are, which is why "growing up" is such a pain. I am in realty just sitting on my ass and reading papers. You guys can call it "literature review" all you like. Makes you sound IMPORTANT, right???

4. I give up on jeans. I'm just oddly shaped. A lovely odd shape though.

5. I don't like this whole buying and selling of water thing. It's dangerous.

6. Just didn't want to end on 5!
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